As I was jogging around the Championship Field this morning for boot camp, my blogger brain was on overdrive. I was embracing the distraction from how my body felt at 6:15 this morning. Then my thoughts turned to mental defeat. I started to contemplate how easy it is for my mind to control my motivation or typical lack of motivation.
When I signed on for Boot Camp, just like Grad School, I didn't give it too much thought. I knew in my heart I wanted to do it, I kept thinking about it, so I just signed up. Honestly if you give most people the ample opportunity to mull over working out at 6:15 in the morning, eventually their mind is going to win. Especially when, in my case, I have never really worked out regularly.
I have to admit, I just kind of laughed to myself as I rounded the field for what looked like some lovely lunges across the field. After completing my third boot camp class, I know I am physically getting a work out, but more importantly I am mentally enabling myself to take on the new role that comes with working out. With that is also letting go of the labels and the perceptions I have convinced myself to become.
There once was a time when I would tell people, I can't run. There's no way, I can run. Can't do it, not a runner. Then I just eased into it. I found my body's natural running rhythm and worked through not being the fastest woman on the block. But ultimately I could run and I wouldn't let my mind tell my body I couldn't.
The same rings true for working out at 6:15 in the morning. Most mornings I lounge around, half asleep in bed while my husband gets up with the girls. You know, I am one of those, not a morning person type. See where I am going with this?
Obviously it's premature to envision getting up all the time at 5:30 to work out, but you know what, it feels damn good. I like being up, getting in a little sweat accompanied by my famous red cheeks, coming home to my family refreshed and revived, ready to start the day.
I know these feelings are going to be permeating into other facets of my life. How often am I shutting the door on opportunities for personal growth just because I have become comfortable with my mind telling me I can't or I am not capable? Plenty, I am sure of it. So watch out mind, I am not giving in so easy from now on.