Even though I am not huge on "New Year's Resolutions", I will happily admit I am huge on the New Year. I love the notion of starting anew. New year, another chance to seize the moment. A great way to work through personal struggles, with a fresh beginning. With a New Year, comes some general notions on how I would like to steer the course for the next year. A chance to really take living to the next level (for me!).
Sporadically through out my blog over the last year or so, I've mentioned my desire to budget. Now I never quite envision writing down every nickel and dime we spend or pouring each penny into a spread sheet to see the numbers in a new way. I have always wanted harmony when it came to spending. I don't feel an overwhelming desire to obtain things, but I do have find myself unconsciously spending every month. Admittedly sometimes I dread opening a credit card statement when it arrives in the mail, knowing I would be disappointed by the balance. Or balancing my checkbook once every couple of weeks, rather than daily because I know the feelings that it evokes.
My husband and I, spent New Year's Eve talking about money. Talking about where we would like to be in one year, financially. Setting realistic expectations. Looking hard at the numbers, monthly bills and monthly wastes. Then a few people recommended All Your Worth by Elizabeth Warren, so I stopped by my local bookseller (where I had a gift card, thank you) and picked it up. The universe speaks and I actually listened.
Our goal, to consciously spend. To consciously reduce the one credit card debt we have. It hangs over my head at night, when I know the flow of money for the month is off, whenever I use it knowing damn well I shouldn't be. I don't want it weighing down on me anymore, I know in one year, I will let the burden go.
The second thought for starting anew, as always is working out. I now have Wii Fit, so there are no more excuses (can't afford the gym, need childcare, too cold out to run, feel intimidated). Everyday I can take a minimum of 20 minutes, but hopefully more like 45 minutes for myself. To make my body strong, to improve my posture, and possibly enjoy the perks of dropping a few pounds. I never really care to put a number on weight, I just want to fit into my jeans with out a sigh. I want to enjoy all foods in moderation. Working out is the key to the puzzle that I never consistently place in the picture. It's time, 2009.
What's the overall theme of my 2009 hopes?
No longer pushing aside feelings for things or food. Being there, feeling it. Learning a new way to love live, for the better, for in my heart I definitely know better than what I've been giving myself.