Sometimes I think about making a long list of all my responsibilities, just for the heck of it. Out of curiosity, to see it on paper. First there's the obvious taking care of my family, keeping the household running, finances, all the things the typical Household Executives are responsible for. Then there's other things on the side, like volunteering to be a Girl Scout Troop Co-Leader or overseeing the entire Scholastic Book Club Orders for my daughter's former pre-school (and soon to be my youngest daughter's new pre-school in the fall). Of course let's not forget Graduate School, which is something I wanted for myself, but wonder why. There aren't quite enough hours in the day for all that the course requires, but yet I am managing to stay afloat. Of course there is this blog (and Rocky Mtn Moms Blog where I contribute), which I don't quite have the overzealous energy for that I did in it's early days, but I am keeping it going. I like to call it, quality over quantity. Ha! I don't think I could give this blog up, it's a part of my identity, or as the social media types like to call it, my brand. If only my brand would pay me.
Life really is just chugging along for me, sometimes I feel balanced and other days are out of control. All normal. But then opportunity falls into my lap. Another thing, is it possible?
Believe it or not, an employment opportunity has fallen into my lap. Make money. Novel concept for someone that hasn't brought home a real paycheck since the 2003 Tax Year. I have made some money, but not regular good money.
Now for the reality part. The job that I was offered could either be full time or part time, flexible hours. A dream really. But I pay my babysitter $12 an hour, which I think is very reasonable, I whole heartedly trust her with my children. After I crunched the numbers, I would make oh about $20 bucks a week after paying for childcare. The problem is I would have to pay my babysitter an extra hour a day over which I would be payed, which is travel time back and forth. I would be getting paid for 9 hours of work a week, but paying for 12 hours of childcare. Hence the problem.
The disappointing part of the whole situation is that the opportunity would be wonderful. I would learn the skills to teach dyslexic students how to read. It would be a fabulous addition to my resume, which as we all know is lacking in the professional experience being a stay at home mom. There would be opportunity for growth, being the Director of the center.
My options are to; make no money, but gain experience and lifelong skills for my profession, pass on the job, or find cheaper childcare.
Seems like the timing is just not right for this opportunity. It's so hard to say no to something that feels so right. I have to continually remind myself that soon enough both of my girls will be in school full time. My time with them right now is priceless, a time I will never have the opportunity to get back.
Honestly, I can do with out so many things to be with my girls. Even if that's a really good career building opportunity.