Friday, October 22, 2010

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Nature's Cupcakes, For Lunch?

Left over pasta from last night's dinner with some made on the spot vinaigrette (honey, olive oil, rice vinegar, some salt and pepper). Shredded mozzarella, carrots, and grapes. I hollowed out the core of a local colorado organic apple, filled it with peanut butter, and put some sprinkles on top to make it look like a cupcake! Lastly, for a treat a couple of mini burgers from Japan.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

More Bunnies Bento

Bunny, moon, and circle sandwich (good ol' organic peanut butter and jelly on whole wheat). Broccoli, red peppers, snap peas, orange peppers (left over from dinner stir fry mix), grapes, bunny crackers, and some japanese biscuits/crackers for a treat.

I haven't been doing much lunch packing lately, as we are packing our home to move in a couple of weeks. Hot lunch has been my go to when I haven't been to the store or I just run out of time in the morning. I am fortunate enough to have a great hot lunch option at my daughter's school, her district is a part of the School Food Project. They've eliminated all processed foods, high fructose corn syrup, have bulk organic white milk (just pour into cups), a harvest bar, and a vegetarian option every day.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Sometimes I like to pretend that everything is just fine...

With those words I will see all of you on the flip side. The flip side of not knowing where I will be living in just two short weeks. The flip side of saying goodbye to my home of 8 years. The flipside of having most of our possessions in some concrete storage space. The flipside of now having a po box as my address. The flipside of this process sucking worse than I ever would have imagined.

Right now even though I like to pretend, I can't.

See you on the flipside, when that will be I truly don't know.

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Thursday, October 7, 2010

I Think You're The Most Beautiful Girl In The Whole World...

Today I sat in on a classroom birthday celebration for Sj. They have a very special ritual where the birthday child walks around the sun for each year of their life. The sun is a candle, placed on a orange wooden cut out, with twelve rays representing each month of the year. All of the students sing a song counting up the numbers for each year as she circled the sun. After each year the birthday child tells a short story about that year of their life. I first told the story of her birth (the very edited quick and painless version), years one and two. She filled in the rest.

After the traveling around the sun ceremony we passed out a fruit snack to her classmates. Then Sj's teacher asked each student to give her a compliment. I was a part of the circle, so I sat and listened to the students go in order. Lots of girls said you're a great friend, the boys said she was awesome with cheddar cheese on top, many of them were very grateful for their fruit snack. The compliments began to just fade into one another and the students some what distracted by their treat.

Until we came to one boy in her class.

He paused for a moment, took a deep breath, and looked Sj straight in the eyes. This young 7 year old boy then said, "I think you're the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world." Right there in front of the entire class, with a sincerity beyond my belief. I felt the, I don't care what you think I'm speaking my mind energy, come rushing from him.

Then my eyes proceeded to well up. I was floored as I experienced one of those moments in my daughter's life that I am sure she won't forget for years, if ever. There's no greater gift I've been given than to experience the bountiful richness that I call motherhood. Sweet blessings all around.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Honoring the feeling that the house, just wasn't right...

The chaos that has become our housing situation has simply taken over our lives. I would love to write about what I made for dinner or about a hike I took on Sunday, but I can't because we are all house, all the time. Yesterday we returned to a house that we were going to write on for a second time. We did our homework and knew the problems that came with this particular house. We've spoken to contracting companies, studied structural engineer write ups and drawings, and tried to read through air quality testing results.

But most importantly, I didn't feel it.

J and I showed up to the home for our fourth time. I walked around out back admiring the flagstone patio and identifying the plants that were growing around the property. I peeked in the windows of the almost perfect oversized garage in the backyard. We went inside in search of evidence of things we now knew were in the home, but they were all hidden. Property disclosures are an amazing thing people. I do feel lucky the owner was so open and honest about the history of the property because from a walk-through you would have no idea.

We were standing in the kitchen and I tried to convince myself I wanted this house. I stood there looking for qualities that I loved or more honestly that I liked. For this particular house my favorite things about it were the location, the garage, and the wood floors. The only thing in the house I liked were the hardwoods.

I just couldn't justify buying a house for the hardwood floors. Hardwoods are easy enough to put into any house eventually, it's the floor plan or main living space that I want to fall in love with. It doesn't have to be cosmetically perfect or to our aesthetic, but I really do want to be giddy with excitement about the house we are buying. I never felt excited about this house, it was practical and so we went for it.

After we left the house, our realtor asked if we wanted to write an offer. We said yes. J and I returned to pick up Sj from school just about 5 minutes away and we sat on a bench chatting about if this was it. In that moment I was honest. Honest about how it was perfect in so many ways, but the reality was this particular house came with a ton of baggage (from issues over the years). We decided to close the chapter on this house and not put in an offer.

Now I am actively seeking out apartments. Temporary housing so we don't have to settle on a house we wouldn't buy if there were other options. I just don't know how long it's going to take for that other option to come into our life. I never imagined being in this position, heading into the holidays with no home.

Chin up and moving forward!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Six Layer Rainbow Cake with Mario!

This morning I woke at 6:30 and began to construct a cake. Well, not just any cake, but a six layer rainbow cake. I made enough batter for two cakes, simply put 1.5 cups of batter into a smaller bowl, colored it individually, and baked (for less time, win win). Technically the layers were not full size, but the cake was still grandiose.

My now 7 year old requested sky blue icing and while I was at it, I decided to add some clouds by keeping some homemade frosting aside before coloring it blue. The cake was fun and whimsical so we added Mario. My favorite part about this particular cake was that the rainbow cake on the inside was a surprise!

This is how it looks now. Apparently it was a hit!