I simply want to remember this moment. The moment I consider to be my breakthrough, mental walls collapsing all around me and there I am...
Running, smiling, and still running. Still Running?!?!?!
I just kept at it. Everyday or as often as I could, I'd return to the treadmill and walk. Sometimes I'd run, maybe squeak out 12 minutes, 5 minutes, whatever I could. I always tried to push myself beyond my comfort (walking) zone. The oddest thing about my run or walk dilemma, is that I don't huff and puff when I run. I can feel my lungs expand and contract filling with cleansing oxygen, growing stronger every day. BUT... I'd still find myself return to walking, it was this huge mental obstacle for me.
I stepped on the treadmill tonight. After 5 minutes of walking I upped the pace and just started to run. I have a focal point off in the distance I like to remain in constant contact with, kind of like when you are trying to keep balance in a yoga pose. I just kept coming back to my focal point, the #50 on a weight machine about 15 feet in front of me, then it was a simple black knob on a white machine. Focus, move, and don't think about running, just move. Keep moving. Oh my goodness, I'm doing it. Move, run, move.
Whatever works, right?
It was absolutely euphoric. I did it. I ran for 25 minutes with no slowing down. I knew it was there inside of me, I just had no idea how to unlock it.
Now this whole other journey starts.
[photo is of from my cool down, it will be a reminder of the moment]